day 1.

Firs run in awhile, I was missin out

So I'm trying this whole working out thing.

again. 

But this time I'm getting married in August so I would like to look nice for that ;) 

Bowl of Heaven ...literally

I am by no means trying to get super model thin 

All I want is to me be happy with my body

I want to work out and be fit and healthy

it feels good to me.

I don't hate working out, I actually love it 

I just get lazy, being honest here.

So today , on leap day, I want to start working out more 

My run today was awesome and now I'm ready for the day! 

I need to remember this day and remind myself to 

not be lazy! 

Since we're being honest here, let me be frank,

I want to be a hot wife ! 

For my husband of course.

I want to feel and look dang good on my wedding day

So here goes nothing.

Let the workouts begin ! 

Day 1.

my girls !

If I start talking about them I'll go into an emotional whirl wind

 

But they are lovely 

beautiful 

strong 

young women 

of

God

I have been blessed beyond belief to do life with these girls since 7th grade.

To watch them grow up right before me 

has been an absolute treasure.

They're awesome 

and 

I can't wait for all the more memories we'll make 

and to some day

see them 

get married to strong men of God 

a very long time from now :) 

decor and stress.

suitcases/photo booth props/blue

for the aisle

Bottles !

lanterns :)

instead of a pillow for the rings we want to put them on a Bible. 

 Our center, our love comes from Jesus

for the cards, Cory loves this idea !

Photos/desk/clothes pins

all {via}

 Just some more things of what I would like at the wedding :) 

I am hoping to find most of these items by waking up at 6am and going on the hunt 

at some garage sales.

I've been successful in finding glass bottles and jars. 

I am really on the hunt for a good suitcase and hopefully some other vintage/rustic style items.

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Some people love planning their wedding and some....well have a harder time doing this 

{that would be me} 

I have most things in order.

Except for a darn DJ.

for reals, so hard. 

I just think once I can see it in person, then I will love it and be excited.

But just envisioning it..once again..just plain hard to do. 

I want to be giddy. I want to be over the moon excited. I want to ! I just want it all

to come to life right in front of my eyes like now please. 

{It will look amazing, no matter what}

mmmmm kinda of hard to say now that I think about it.

I want perfect.

I have heard all the horror stories of things going wrong here and there. 

And I feel its unavoidable

And I just don't know if I'll be able to handle it to be honest.

So I'm afraid that something will go wrong and everyone will notice.

 And that's really where I'm at right now, there's no turn around

No, {but I know it will be great I just know it!} 

I'm afraid, worried, stressed, and a tad overwhelmed. 

This bites. 

I am excited to be married to the man of my dreams. 

YAY ! :) 

There's my happy thought 

Emotional

I am sooo emotional right now !
I just watched Parenthood... can you blame me ?
I am ready to curl up under the covers and just sob for no reason
oye -I'm such a girl and Cory would be rolling his eyes at me right now
I can't help it, I always find a way to relate all these stories back to me
I always have a fear that I'm super lame or I'm a mean person and
I always want to be the person who is happy and is easy-going about life.
I have a lot of fears about my future about myself as a person, it's really never ending.
It's something I need to and want to work on, to not sweat the small stuff and be happy
And Enjoy Life !
So this is one of those times when I want to remember that.
I want to work on being easy-going and trusting in my God.
I don't want to be fearful, but faithful.
Easier said then done, I know.
But I like to remind myself it's a growing process
A loonngggg process, but it's still happening and will continue through out my life.

Remember Courtney ! Be happy, be excited and be trusting and faithful to your God.


oh and also, sometimes its just totally awesome and satisfying to just cry for no reason.

Valentine dinner :)

Some of the things

A turquoise blue will be through out the wedding, it's in the summer so I'm looking forward to lemonade and Coke Cola bottles :)

I love this bouquet ! Simple yet amazingly pretty

Chalkboards and suitcases a must !

My bridesmaids will be in short turquoise blue dresses love this photo !

My cake, simple, but pretty with the subtle flowers 

 

And of course jars !

{all} 

pinterest.com

I hope all of this comes together ! 

It's going to be simple, but fresh, light and pretty.

I'm not looking to please everyone with what they want

I'm definitely looking for what I want, I love a lot of things and I have

amazing friends who have a similar style as me, so they are going 

to be so helpful to me ! 

Everyone keeps asking how they can help and I keep letting them know 

OOOHHHH just you wait ! there will be plenty of decorations and setting up to do 

I can not wait, I'm so thankful for all my friends and family that are going to be so helpful through this process.

Our Last.

Our last Valentines as an 

unmarried couple 

shoot. 

Next year we will have our first Valentines

as a married couple

Married.

Husband & Wife. 

Geez. 

To my love :  You love Jesus. He is your number one. And I am in love with that fact.

And through Him you love me at my worst. When I'm crazy and I look like a mad woman on the loose. You say you love me.

You tell me I'm beautiful allll the time.

And I love hearing it every time even when I say I look gross. 

You always tell me to turn to God when I'm fed up.

God is our focus as a couple. Thank God ! 

Thank you for always pushing me towards Him.

You have made me better.

You "complete me" ( cheesy, yes, its ok)

Thank you for making me laugh when I'm sad.

You listen to me talk about EVERYTHING 

You will go to the ends of the Earth to make me smile. 

You work so hard to make our wedding day possible and our future possible the days after our wedding.

When I am an emotional freak you, Let. Me. Cry. 

No one has ever told me it's okay to cry.

But you do. 

Thank you for always supporting me and never laughing at my dreams or goals in life.

Cory you have helped make me strong, brave, confident and have helped make me a better woman of God who turns to Him in any situation.

And trusts Him ! 

I'm so excited for August 5th 2012. and for what's to come.

it's been crazy so far.

But I'm glad I'm with you. 

Love Day !

There are no plans.
yet.
I have nothing.
yet.
It's going to be the day before I'll makeyou/buyyou/iloveyou everyday anyway so relax type of gift :)

He loves me no matter what so it's cool

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Let me just say...

I am that girl. 

I'm the girl who loves Valentines Day. I love getting flowers and the cheap 1$ chocolate heart shaped boxes from CVS. It's fun ! Chocolate. Hello !

Cory and I are probably going to go get some sushi and maybe go see The Vow, because he knows how badly I want to see it! ( he wants to see it too)   

And that will be our night. It will be full of love, laughs and happiness. 

2010 

first official "officially a couple" photo

Ice

That ring be bangin !
I love my ring.
I never have worn rings, I wasn't a ring person until this beauty came along.
When I first saw it I was in shock at how beautiful it was, then my second thought was, "I'm going to wear that, alllll the time !?" Me? can I pull it off, is it not "me" I'm so silly with myself sometimes yeesh.
My ring is me, Cory knew I would pull it off :) I absolutely love it and it is a unique style that I adore.
My engagement ring actually in a weird way gave me some guts to try new things as far as style, I'm typically well, plain. wah.wah.
My ring is so unique that I want to be creative and step out of the box ! Just a little....not a lot...remember I come from the land of plain...too much outside the box and I may combust.



Note to self : be unique and try new things. I don't need all the money in the world to make an outfit look cute, or to have something that makes my future house sooo perfect. It is okay to try new things. Test it out.  Be fun ! Yay !

Dresses !

Crazy.
Madness.
Icoulddoabetterjobthenthesechicks.


Seriously that's how I feel when trying to get a dress for my wedding.
Wedding dress: if you tell them for something you don't want they'll probably bring it out anyway
Girls know what you want ! Because let me tell ya it is not like say yes to the dress !
If you know what you want it's a breeze thankfully I pretty much knew what I wanted so I was extremely happy, and the circus of trying on random dresses that looked unpleasant on me was an unfortunate bonus oh well !
I enjoyed the time with family and having my grandma there whose almost completely blind coming within inches of me to see the dress was the best :)
Bridesmaid dresses : repeat but with my girlfriends ! I think half of the experience is not getting the dress itself but enjoying time with your girls and being silly ! Love my bridesmaid !! It was a great girl time and I am so thankful for them. We may have a dress but me and being so indecisive I still think we are on the hunt !
And I might just want an excuse for another girls day :)

First

So this is where I'm at with the wedding planning
venue
dress
save the dates
food
cake
photographer
 the whole theme
colors

Wedding in August and that's what I have done ? pretty good, not gunna lie even for a rookie like me.
I get why there are professional wedding coordinators, this stuff is crazy to plan.
And I'm 20.
ridiculous.


There is just so much that goes into this, but I'm very excited and I do love this. I'm going to feel way accomplished when its done for sure hah.

Just hoping it all goes according to plan

fingers crossed.

Where to start ?

I don't even know where to begin, but first off, this engagement journey has been one heck of a ride.
I want to remember all the sweet moments
And not the oh so sweet moments hah !
But, what I know right now, in this moment is I love my man.
He is so precious to me and loves me so much !
So thankful for him and all he does for me.
I'm so excited for the journey we are on and so blessed to be leaning on God and trusting Him !

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Date night tonight ! So excited. Hopefully get some sushi and have some fun !

Note to self: always remember to have date nights, plan something ! Be silly! Have a good time and be in love ! 

Yum !

Avacado and chicken wrap
1 tomato
1 Avacado
1 cucumber
Diced chicken
Alfalfa sprouts
Lime juice
Tortillas
Spread: plain Greek yogurt
Diced chives
Salt and pepper
Soooo yummy !!
With cut up zucchini with Parmesan cheese and corn flakes, baked in the oven for 10mins at 375 degrees

Here we go

I'm marrying this guy this AUGUST ! this journey is crazy, but I'm excited !