break

 

Spring break came and went

good thing I get 2 spring breaks...

I work at a school

score ! 

Anyway, I got some goodies from my mom's friend

again 

and it was only the best banners ever ! 

find here: CM handmade

so happy :)

 

I had 1 day of freedom and I got to drive down the coast to visit my sweet friend Alyce and got to hang with my niece Lila Noel 

 

Happy time 

 

It was such a blessing to be with my friend/leader/role model/encourager 

you name it 

that's her. 

I had a wonderful girls days 

it was much needed and I am so grateful 

the time spent was great for me because I got to just talk and be a girl, no pressure, nothing 

just time to tell everything and to get poured into by my leader 

and a big breath got to be let out 

aaahhhh nice :) 

weekend

 this past week:

I had a date with my fiance and a gun.

a registry gun 

woohoo !

 let me just say Martha Stewart

is awesome.

she was the only one that I saw that had color ! 

for goodness sake !

Cory and I found it too funny, every section we went into for appliances 

it was Martha Stewart we liked most.

Cory freaked

there's nothing manly about Martha

sorry hun :)

  

He did enjoy the gun though

and shining the red light in my face 

thanks. 

It was a good experience and totally awesome to know Cory would let me express myself with our home with bright colors

He agreed 90% of the time with me

can I say this man is meant for me?

ya I can say that.

win.

 

another date night 

score ! 

this time we got my car washed 

we're such party animals 

we also enjoyed a nice double date dinner with a couple from our church 

it was so nice to hear from a married couple about real life experiences 

and to just see their love for one another 

I love the examples we have for our marriage 

there is so much support, encouragement and love

 

just a bomb lunch with Cory after Sunday church on a rainy day.

talking about Jesus

looking at the rain, running through the rain and walking through Target

perfect day. 

 

some sweet awesome goodies from a friend of my moms

whose known me since before I was born 

she is sooo sweet, she has been searching for things for me for my wedding 

and anything that she knows I would like 

Uhm, amazing right? 

So blessed and I feel so loved ! 

a productive, loved filled weekend 

update

a sweet friend made me feel loved :)

So Wednesday night was hard.  

crying the whole time hard. 

yeah... one of those moments when you realize things are changing.

It's not a bad thing...just hard.

So it's going to be a long journey and I'm still emotional about it 

so this will be revisited 

all I know is I need my Jesus, Cory, and my friends to get me through this

please.thankyou.

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in other news, my past weekend was awesome

I went to Vegas for a lacrosse tournament with 16 crazy girls :)

spray painted some shirts on a sketchy parking lot structure.

enter creepy man

Enter Courtney doing a little prayer and sending creepy man on his way.

Protective Mama status 

Missed my two best friends Birthday on St. Patricks day 

so bummed !

but rocked some spirit of the day for the 3 games we had 

1st game: enter: extremely mean referee yelling at one of our players in.the.face.

yo, not cool dude.

enter Courtney: told ref that is not okay to yell at women like that and he needs to work on his anger issues...stat. 

ref apologized

Protective Mama ...again :)

  

 our wonderful drive home :)  

 laughs, frustrations, sketchy moments, lots of eating, fun, cuddling, lacrosse, freezing our booties off.

girl time. much appreciated. 

keeping track

This blog is meant for me to keep track of things, 

I want to look back and see how God has worked in my life 

I'm wanting to trust more in Him ans this is a way for me to do that 

Even when it's hard I want to be trusting in God

Which is really hard for me

I think I can handle everything on my own ...

{and then I have a major break down}

So if I'm trusting my God I can hold on to that

He is my foundation and the only one who can get me through.

Which is where I am right now, tonight 

I go to Cory's church.

Scared is an understatement. 

I've been at my home church for 7 years

I don't know anything else

they are the definition of a family

my heart is so full for my home

I knew this day would come, and I thought I could handle it.

Nope. 

I'm trying I am really am, it's just so hard to leave a true family and a group of girls that I have been able to watch grow and mature so quickly.

My home is where I have learned about Jesus and have been able to really grow into who I am today. 

I am beyond blessed by my home church and to leave them to go to Cory's church is really hard 

I'm the new girl, I don't know anyone, I don't have my girls, I feel like a freshman all over again.

Sucks.

I'm hoping I don't go running for the hills or I start hysterically crying...that would be bad, seriously. 

I am hoping to be faithful to God and hold tightly on to Him.

I'm hoping to remember that I'm really not alone, I do have Cory, who supports me no matter what and comforts me constantly .

I'm not going to his church because I have to, I'm going because I want to grow closer to God, I am planning on being a wife, and there is a lot that comes with that, and Cory will fail me, and this opportunity to go somewhere different and out of my element means I'm holding on to Christ and no one else, which is what I need to do.

When I am so done with everything and I feel like no one is on my side 

I need to be confident in knowing my God is on my side and He will never fail me. 

So I need to take a big deep breath, and pray continuously, because God will be the only one to get me through anything.

{This maybe jumbled up and confusing to some, and I'm totally scatter brained while writing this, but this is for me to understand, so hopefully I will when I look back on this. }

All I know is I'm wanting to trust God more and to do ministry with Cory is going to so beneficial for us going into marriage. 

I'm excited for that part at least !

I love Cory so much and I know he can grow so much still at his church and he will learn from the men there to be an awesome Godly husband 

and that's what I need. 

This is super hard, but I know my church family still loves me and they are always going to be there for me and I will never forget them, and there's no way I can since they are my closest friends ! 

I love my God and I want to grow so so much more in Him and to be that Proverbs 31 woman I aspire to be.

This new journey is scary, but I'm looking to my God to hold my hand through it all.

And Cory better hold my hand pretty tightly too ;) 

totally still scared after writing this, but feeling a little better that I got a chance to express my feelings

I hope from this post, I only grow more and more each day and I see how God has worked in my life.

Bring on the journey.

march 15th

Lord help me remember that this life is not my own, it is Yours
I live for You
I will find my heart, my soul, my mind, my everything in You.
 
To have lost a sweet 15 year old girl 2 years ago today, my heart aches
I'm trying to find my stable ground in all of this
That stable ground is only Jesus. 
My heart is full for this beautiful girl and her family.
to go through all of this and to say my stable ground is still Jesus no matter what
that is truly a God centered family 

Sweet, sweet Kenzie girl I miss you so very much, you have changed so many lives and have made us never forget who we need to put our hope in.
To see you again in Heaven will be such a wonderful moment and I hold onto that.
You have made me remember that I need to cherish those around me and to love them no matter what.
To show an unconditional love to people and not put conditions on love for others.
Remember to live each day as if it's my last and to bring Glory to God
My dear Kenzie you truly have made a lasting impact on so many, you have made a community come together as one and remember who has them when all is lost.
We love you and miss you so very much and we thank God for the time we got to spend with you and thank Him that we will get to see you again.
You are so beautiful girly and remember I will always stick up for you

Phil 1:3 

D.I.G.

 

my sisters in Christ 

my source of encouragement, counsel, wisdom, life-doers, ultimate girl talk <3 

I am so thankful for them

~I need these women in my life forever ~

My step sister 

Sisters by chance, friends by choice 

I will love her and cherish her for the rest of my life 

I'm so proud of her and am so happy to watch her life grow and flourish in so many ways.

  best friends est. 2004
our hair color may change all the time, but our friendship remains the same

we made it through junior high

we made it through high school 

and we are still goin 

this girl loves me, tells me how it is, brings back to reality, keeps me grounded and sane

I have way too many inside jokes with her

we get mad at each other, we cry for each other, we laugh at each other, we are always there for each other.

 

I am beyond blessed. 

flowers

This is all happening.

our weddding.

set in stone writing.

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