new chapter

 

 New beginnings.

marriage is hard.

and I'm not even there yet.

breathe. 

the engagement time has been nothing like I thought it would be

Everyone said "enjoy it" "it's the best time of your lives"

nahhh. 

it has been hard, frustrating, painful, exhausting, scary 

lame. 

the transition to go to a new church for me has been the hardest thing

ever.

my family, my home leaving it has been so hard especially to hear of so many changes already.

I was angry with God, straight up 

it was hard enough and then I had more fuel added to the fire 

so done, so confused, so lost. 

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it is still hard, but God is truly and forever faithful 

He has been bringing people into my life that have encouraged me, as well as, Cory

God has also revealed to me that He truly has me where I'm supposed to be.

The men that Cory has pouring into his life is absolutely crucial for us and our marriage 

and to have a chance to hear from the wives of these men has been beneficial to me

because I get to see that I'm not all that crazy or alone in my feelings. 

So right now I'm in a place that is a little shakey, but being faithful to God 

without knowing what the future holds 

is okay. 

He will provide, He will protect me and Cory and He will bless us greatly as long as we hold onto Him and He is at the forefront of our minds.

So this Bible holds a lot more meaning than just a new Bible

it's a new journey

a milestone 

a new season of life 

a changing time 

a growing time 

and a time to be faithful to God.